FU*K THAT :: When I saw a post by GGN publisher Shaun Proulx on his #ThoughtRevolution Facebook page which read, “Unfu*ck Yourself. Be who you were before all that stuff happened that dimmed your fu*king shine,” it struck me:
I have been fu*king myself.
Around that same time, I read the words of a CEO who claims 95% of all things that happen in your life are because of you, your reactions and how you choose to handle them. The other 5% is from outside forces, which you simply have no control over.
I recently completed a contract as a marketing coordinator that I thought would be the best gig in town; everyone thought I was big time.
During this contract I experienced a corporate culture that was not the world I wanted to experience; I have before. Although I knew it wasn’t for me, I told myself I couldn’t pass up an awesome opportunity that held much prestige and made others envious.
I have never experienced so much pressure, stress, frustration and anger – which ultimately led to my anxiety disorder erupting at a high level, a severe warning sign for me.
But the contributing factors were of the 5% I could not control variety: egos; seasoned employees with cushy positions and little care for anything else; government and union politics; unrealistic expectations; and how terrible the Spadina-University subway operates during rush hour.
When I saw the “Unfu*k Yourself” post I realized I fu*ked myself up during this experience because I have a passion and a deep sense of care for what I do in my life professionally and personally, and so fought elements that were out of my control.
Since then I decided to own my crap. I am now moving forward because the experience taught me to let go. I mean I really let go of all I cannot control; the things that were fu*king me up.
I have unfu*ked myself. I now always want to be the person I know I am before all that stuff happened that dimmed my fu*king shine.
What about you?